Facing a Fear

Backyard Weekend Outfit

Shirt c/o / JeansNecklace / Hat

This week was a big one for me, you guys! You might remember a few months ago I was asked to model in a bathing suit for People Stylewatch. When my husband convinced me to do it, I thought I was facing my biggest fear. I was wrong. I was about to face an even bigger one! Last week, the editor at Stylewatch asked if I would come on The TODAY Show to model the same suit live. On national television. Wait, what? Me in a swimsuit on TV? I don’t think so…

My first instinct was to say no. At least with the photo shoot I had a few weeks to prepare, throwing in extra workouts and cutting all gluten. This time it was a matter of days before the live show. Again, my husband convinced me that it would help me get over my intense body dysmorphia and it actually did help! I got a barrage of text messages, calls, emails, and Snapchats from friends and family (and some people I hadn’t heard from in years) saying how amazing I looked. And I actually believed it. For the first time in a long time!

Some fun BTS facts from the show: Jason Bateman might have seen me change into my bathing suit. Ellie Kemper smiled at me, so pretty sure Kimmy Shmidt and I are now BFFs. I had a major fangirl moment with Zosia Mamet. I blacked out the entire time I was on camera. After it was all over I literally couldn’t remember it. That’s how nervous I was!

You can watch the segment here and pick up the May issue of StyleWatch on newsstands today. Side bar, I’m also in a two-page advertorial in the same issue, random!

I celebrated my mini personal victories along with celebrating my husband’s 30th birthday a little early with friends and family all weekend to celebrate including a dinner party on Friday night (my first in the new house) and a night out on Saturday, and a brunch at home on Sunday. That evening, after I was aggressively exhausted from all the fun, I threw on this amazing tropical print shirt (obsessed) and my favorite necklace of the summer for rosé on the patio before everyone headed home. Thank goodness for a relatively easy week and next weekend at home with not too many plans.

PS I’ve received so many questions about the bathing suit I wore for the suit and segment. I found it online here and here for you guys!

Vineyard Vines Shirt

Backyard Cocktails

Summer BBQ outfit

Tropical Shirt

Vineyard Vines Floral Shirt

Shop my look:

Rosé Juliska Glass


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  1. Carly A. Heitlinger said:

    J, I thought you looked amazing! Natural, hot, confident, and happy! 🙂

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  2. Dana said:

    I saw your two page advertorial in Style Watch this past weekend and you look great there! I’m so in awe of you for being able to face your fear and appear on tv in a bathing suit 🙂 I feel like I need to go find the segment online so I can cheer you on from afar!

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  3. Samantha Tananbaum said:

    You looked amazing and you should be so proud of yourself! Total rockstar! Also, love this look. Perfect color combo for spring!


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  4. Maggie said:

    You looked amazing and rocked it!! What a cool experience!


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  5. Dana Mannarino said:

    Obsessing over that necklace!

    Also, congrats on the TODAY show/Style Watch feature! So so so cool!

    Pink Champagne Problems

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  6. Jess Zimlich said:

    Just watched the segment and you all did amazing! I wouldn’t have guessed you were even the slightest bit nervous 🙂

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  7. Elana said:

    Congratulations! You looked absolutely beautiful!

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  8. sarah.gouin said:

    Good for you – you looked fantastic!!

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  9. Meghan Donovan said:

    And you looked SO GOOD DOING IT!!! Congrats on such a major moment – proud to know ya ;)!

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  10. Samantha Cossick said:

    I saw your snaps and immediately thought: “She’s a much braver woman than I am,” but you looked absolutely amazing! Sometimes all it takes is a little push to help us conquer our fears! — SC at http://www.samanthachic.com

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  11. Kate {Taffeta and Tulips} said:

    Congrats! That’s so exciting! You looked great and I love that swimsuit!

    Taffeta & Tulips

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  12. Lisa Arbetter said:

    Thank you so much for participating. I’m glad the experience was meaningful to you, and I’m sure you inspired many other woman out there!

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  13. MC said:

    You looked seriously amazing – congrats on such an achievement!!

    PS love how your house/deck is coming together! Keep up the updates. Where are those amazing Rose/wine glasses from!

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