Mercury in Retrograde is killing me… Who’s with me? My site went down yesterday (Friday) and this is my second attempt at publishing this post. It feels like everything technological is going crazy lately and I can’t wait for this retrograde to be over with a capital O.
This month has been stressful outside of tech drama too. Anel and I are dealing with two very major and very intense situations that I promise to share more about in the coming weeks… I’m not pregnant, I promise! Our marriage has been tested and I’m proud of how we’ve worked together to get through some trying times.
It’s also been an emotional month with Amalia turning two. I am so madly in love with her now, but as I looked back at old photos of her as a baby last week, I felt sad that I wasn’t fully present in her first year of life because of my anxiety. I know that it wasn’t my fault, but I feel like I missed out on so much which breaks my heart. I’m trying hard to make up for that time now by being the best mom I can possibly be every day.
We’re heading on our annual week-long vacation to Martha’s Vineyard with my family at the end of next week and I can hardly wait for some beach time and a little break from work.
Have a great weekend and enjoy some good reads below!
Around the Web
My Amazon shop. I finally started one and will be adding to it consistently. I literally went through my order history for the last two years and added a bunch of the products and books that I had bought so they’re all in one place. I’ve divided it into sections like books I love, baby gear, toddler gear, wellness, beauty, sustainability and more. Check it out and let me know what else you’d like to see there.
Doing things vs #doingthings. Ty Haney, the founder of Outdoor Voices, is badass to say the least. She shares her schedule for an entire work-week and I feel both inspired and lazy at the same time reading it.
Workout lewks. My No Bad Vibes shirt and pink sweatpants are both from this new-to-me online retailer for workout and loungewear that curates a really great collection. I have my eyes on these palm leaf leggings too. Product was gifted.
My new favorite horoscope app. I’ve always been interested in astrology, and @sanctuarywrld has quickly become my favorite relatable astrology account to follow on Instagram. I downloaded their (free) horoscope app and am hooked. It has been pretty spot-on for weeks now.
Currently reading. I just finished Normal People and absolutely loved it. I moved onto Something in the Water, a thriller/beach read that I can’t put down. I’ve stayed up way too late over the last few nights to read it.
Currently watching. One of Anel’s favorite shows of all time is Deadwood and he’s been trying to get me to watch it for years. I finally agreed and was hooked from episode one. We’re still on the first season but I am oddly into it despite the fact that I’m not usually a fan of the Western genre in general. Has anyone else seen it?
Bubble fleece. My friends at Dudley Stephens just launched their newest product: bubble fleece. It’s super soft and even better in person! The black one is so chic for fall.
The Remix Project. My family is a big fan of Native Shoes because Amalia loves them and I think they’re just adorable. But the fact that they have a recycling program that turns used shoes into playgrounds makes me love them 1000x more.
100 NYC restaurants for every scenario. Slow clap for Bon App on this article. If you live in the city or are planning to visit anytime soon, it’s a must-read.
The softest PJs on sale. I got a new pair of Lake Pajamas for my birthday and was reminded of how much I love them. They’re having a big sale right now so it’s a great time to scoop up a pair of your own. I’ll be buying these for Amalia.
On emotional labor. The difference between how men and women spend their time.
Sponsorships & collaborations. I was interviewed by Trove for an article featuring multiple influencers about pitching, negotiations, and how to partner with brands as an influencer. It’s interesting to read as someone who works in the industry, but I thought it might be fascinating for you guys to get a little peek behind the curtain too.
Persifor sale. Some of my summer favorites are 60% off right now! I have these shorts and wear them all the time and I love this dress. You can see it on me in another pattern here.
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Photo by Julia Dags.
i can totally relate to feeling like you missed out on amalia’s infancy. while i am so sorry that you too feel that way, it is nice to know that it is not only me. i had very bad ppd/ppa with my twins who are currently 13 months. we are 100% done having kids so i also feel sad that i will never really get another chance to enjoy it. but like you – trying to appreciate it more now – when i’m not too exhausted!
You are definitely not alone. I’m so sorry that you went through it too. We are doing our best and that is all that matters!
Enjoy the afternoon at beach.
Happy to hear the anxiety is less.
I did and thank you!!
Oh my god I LOVE Deadwood, my partner got me hooked on it too!! Anel has great taste lol.
I didn’t realize I was such a huge fan of Westerns, but ever since the mini-movie came out a few months ago I’ve been reading Western novels like crazy!
Word to the wise: Don’t worry about catching all the dialogue this first go-round ( I had a friend who actually used subtitles the whole time just to try to catch it all)! It’s even better during re-watches, because you start to pick up on more and more each time.
Also, I can relate with the anxiety thing. I’ve been on medication for almost a year (yay!) and even though I feel like a much better version of myself, I sometimes feel almost guilty (?) about not starting it sooner, like I think about all the other ways it could have helped sooner.
That is so funny because my sister and brother-in-law told us to watch it with subtitles so we started doing that and I catch so much more now. That said, I understand why people watch it more than once. There’s so much going on!
I know what you mean about feeling guilty for not starting meds sooner. I feel the same way. But my therapist reminds me that I did the best with the information I had at the time and that makes me feel better. Hope it resonates with you too.
YES! Finally an Amazon shop!