Well hello there! The last week has been interesting, to say the least. I haven’t posted anything on here for a while because I’ve been struggling with what to write. And also because I was in Yosemite with my family and no cell service or WiFi. Minor detail. I got back last night and can hardly keep my eyes open this morning, but it’s a busy week so I’ll be drinkin all of the matcha!
Stepping away from the internet and social media over the last few days, especially in such a majestically beautiful place, was just what I needed after a really intense week before that.
In the two days that followed this post, I was a bit of a mess to be quite honest. For the first time in a long time, I had literally no idea what to do next. The things I learned and saw I will never be able to unlearn or unsee and it affected me in a really intense way.
I’ve been blogging for almost 10 years. How many shirts have I sold that are made by a mistreated garment worker? How many dresses have people bought because of me, worn once, and ended up in a landfill? It felt like I had hit a major crossroad, and I didn’t know where to turn next. And the guilt was eating me alive!
During that time I decided two pull out of two major contracts because I didn’t feel comfortable promoting the brands anymore. It was probably the most unprofessional thing I’ve ever done on the backend of my business, but it also felt like the right thing to do. The anxiety of losing the income that family was counting on, plus the guilt I described above, threw me for a loop.
My family trip to Yosemite came at the perfect time. I was thousands of miles from home where I could step away, take (forced) time off of Instagram and emails, and was able to put things into perspective. When you’re in a place so big and so magical, it makes you realize how small you really are… But in a good way.
I spent a lot of time with my very wise 92-year old grandmother who reminded me that I did the best with what I knew for all of those years, and I can take what I’ve learned to shift going forward and we can make small changes together.
We can buy durable, classic clothing that will last longer, we can re-wear that durable clothing more, and when we discover brands and people out there who are making a difference, we can share that knowledge with each other. All of us can always keep learning and growing.
I’ll be back to my regularly scheduled programming tomorrow! Just wanted to let you know what’s been going on. Have a great Monday!